Where I’ve Been For The Last 5 Days

January 25, 2012 | 34 Comments » | Topics: main

You might have noticed that I havent updated the site in the last 5 days and as much as I would like to attribute it to personal laziness, I ‘m going to be completely honest with you guys and tell you that I was in my own personal hell. Drugs, alcohol and back-dated emotional issues are not a combination you want to party with. I never thought I would hit rock bottom and end up in a psych-ward for 3 days but it happened and I’m telling you guys because I want my own story to serve as an example, that although you may tinker with drugs and alcohol and still manage to live your life in a relatively normal way, it will catch up to you and you will only end up hurting yourself or other people. I thought I could handle it. I thought I could party with the best of them. I thought I could be a damn rockstar and do it up and not suffer the repurcssions of such a lifestyle, but I was completely wrong and I went insanse for a couple days. I lost all concept of reality and literally felt like I was in hell. I wanted to kill myself and thank god, I had SOBER people in my life to help me through it. I cannot express how much I love the friends and family that were the light in my darkest days and I truly love them for saving my life. Tomorrow is a new day and I’m going to take it one step at a time and move my life in the positive direction that it needs to go and definitely tomorrow, Caveman Circus will be back bigger and better than before!