Life Experiences

What Is It Like To Have An Autistic Child?

May 7, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

(photo: @caleb_woods)

My daughter is nearly 19, she is the 5th of 5 children and if she had been first there would likely have not been more. She is time intensive and energy draining. She is not adaptive. She is at the higher end of the specturm although she has some very extreme deficits as well. 

This past week she told me that she hates my guts, that she never gets enough attention, that is is unreasonable to only get 5 to 6 hours of my attention and conversation a day. We could never get up and just decide to go to the zoo, because she doesn’t operate on spur of the moment. Everything has to be planned well in advance. This makes life very difficult for her, because life is full of small things like ‘this road is closed, detour’ which can result in hours long rants. On some occasions it results in violent tantrums. One time, someone was running through town shooting. It was impossible to get her away from the window and onto the floor for safety, because she had a “right” to look out the window.

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A Few First Hand Accounts Of Different Life Experiences

May 2, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

What’s it like to be rich as in 1% rich?

Here are some observations from a 17-year-old still growing up in a wealthy household. 
1. I live in blissful ignorance of my family’s finances. 
Ask me about my parents’ yearly salaries, income, our investments, household net worth, etc. and I couldn’t tell you anything except that we are ultra high net worth (≥ US $50 million, don’t know how much exactly). My parents deliberately keep me in the dark when it comes to money, and I’m completely OK with that. I think they made this decision because first off, one wants some loudmouthed kid talking about rich their family is – especially not where I’m from. In the first grade, one of my classmates was kidnapped for over US $100 million (she was safely returned a day later). It is not very safe to be rich AND high-profile about it. It is also considered low-class to talk money no matter who you are. Also, they never wanted me to develop a superiority complex because of my family’s money; in my view, I never have. That being said I guess there is one “downside” to this…  
2. The rich kid’s “Invisible Hand” notion of having a never-ending, limitless amount of cash to spend.  
Obviously this isn’t a truth but a perception. By never-ending, I mean that wealth has basically been a “constant” throughout my life, not visibly affected by financial crises, tax raises and so on. By limitless, I mean that I have never faced something that I cannot afford. As such, I think that rich kids are not necessarily BIG spenders, but are CARELESS spenders for sure. When you literally have an unfathomably large amount of money at your disposal, it’s so actually easier to spend than to save. 

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What Is It Like Having Dissociative Identity Disorder?

April 25, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

(art: Paulo Sérgio Zerbato)

My ex-husband, a Scientist (Tim Cornwell), asked me to answer the question as to what it’s like to have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder). I’ve been thinking about how to answer this for several days. It’s both a tough question and an easy one.

My DID had become more difficult because we were in the middle of selling our home in Australia and moving to the UK. Stress exacerbates my condition. I had been feeling panicky and I think I was losing bits of time. Losing time just means that someone else in my internal system is taking over for me. That is basically what DID is all about. During a child’s most creative years (3-6 years mostly), and if there is horrible abuse/trauma to that child, the child creates different “alters” to take over and protect the main “self” from having to deal with the trauma. It also sets the person up for victimization in later life.

For example, I was gang raped in a University fraternity house. I know something happened, but it wasn’t until years later that the true horror of the memory came through by abreaction (abreaction /ab·re·ac·tion/ (ab″re-ak´shun) the reliving of an experience in such a way that previously repressed emotions associated with it are released.). I don’t know for sure if “I” experienced that rape or if it was a more willing alter (some children are trained to take part in sexual episodes with perpetrators, so they might feel that inappropriate sexual activity is OK).


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Confessions Of A ‘Legal Working Girl’

April 24, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

Where do you legally work from?

I started at the Bunny Ranch and moved to The Mustang Ranch.

How did you get into the business?

Long story short. I found Dennis Hof’s number and texted him some pictures. He called me and we talked and I was in. Like I was saying earlier, it doesn’t usually happen that way but I am someone that goes after the things I want.

How many clients would you see in an average day?

I don’t know if I can average because every day is different. I guess somewhere around 4 or 5. The most I ever had in one day was nine. They aren’t all sex. Some are just bj or hj. Some last 5 minutes. You never know.

Do you shower between clients? If not, what is the refreshment routine?

Every single time I shower after seeing a client.


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What’s It Like To Go To Harvard

April 12, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

harvard university

Harvard is a very extreme place. You go there and everyone is extremely smart, extremely driven, extremely focused on attaining their goals. It is so extreme that it can become scary sometimes. When you have a bunch of people with high intelligence, but who are not necessarily mature or moral, you can get some pretty nasty results (that’s how you get so many insecure, bright students going into Wallstreet to make a lot of money even though it’s screwing everyone else over). 

Even the clubs are extreme. You don’t just write for the newspaper. You have to go through a semester long competitive process to be selected into the Crimson. And after that, if you want to do well in the Crimson, you have to work your ass off and neglect your studies to be considered a true trooper. Kids here consider their extracurriculars a job. All social interactions have some sort of shady networking pre-professional slime to them.  

A lot of students are really full of themselves. They spend all their time climbing the ladders of success and trying to win everything. Everyone is super busy all the time. You have to arrange lunches with your friends about two weeks in advance. 

Harvard is not the type of place where you backstab your friend, but if your friend fell in a race, you would keep on running and not bend down to help. Students, for the most part, are only interested in their own benefit and will do things that look good, rather than things that are good. 


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Confessions Of A Former Navy SEAL

April 4, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

Why did you become a Navy Seal?

I have struggled with this question for a long time. To be brutally honest I would say insecurity. I had to prove something to myself. I chose SEAL training because it was regarded as the hardest thing you could do. To answer the next logical question here, yes I did prove it to myself and I a have lost quite a bit of my insecurity.

Did you do anything to prepare for the training before you joined?

I ran track in high school. My advice is run a lot. Run in soft sand if you can. Check out Crossfit too, it is actually some good stuff. The Crossfit football program will make you vomit blood, but it will get you in shape. DO NOT start the football version without doing the regular version for a while first.

What was your most difficult moment during training and how did you overcome it?

Thursday of hell week we were sitting in the water in the bay. It was freezing and I literally felt like I was going to die. Everything was going numb and I felt a small bit of life left in my chest. It felt like a ball of life and it was getting smaller. I overcame it by simply accepting that I was going to die before I quit. I should probably note that I had been hallucinating for over a day at this point.


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Confessions Of A Retired Bank Robber

March 29, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

What made you get into bank robbery?

Bank robbery is the real American Dream. We make movies about it, and as long as innocent people aren’t hurt or killed, our society loves bank robbers.

Also, it seemed like a worthy challenge. I thought it would be quite an accomplishment if I could solve the puzzle and figure out how to get away with it.

Did you have a mentor of sorts that you learned from or did you have a community of bank robbers that you would talk to?

Only the Internet. I studied countless reports of other robberies that had gone wrong and people who were caught. I never told anyone what I was doing. One of the main things I learned from research was that an overwhelming number of people are caught because they didn’t do it solo. So I never let anyone (not even my wife or best friend) know what I was doing.

How much planning did you do before robbing a bank?

I researched for about five or six months prior to my first one. I studied mostly the things that people did to get caught, and I just tried to plan around those things. It’s hard to know how people get away since those details rarely make it to the news, but studying how people get caught was incredibly helpful in knowing what to avoid.

Once I did my first bank, very little planning was needed for subsequent banks. I never really scoped out a particularly location other than to make sure there was parking that was out of view from the bank.


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Confessions Of A Former Drug Mule

March 21, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

Why did you get into this business?

The city I live in is extremely corrupt. I’ll be honest, I was living at home, working a minimum wage job, paying too much money a month for a decent car (2014 25k car), I was struggling financially overall. I had a hunger for money and power, ultimately leading me to find someone who could get me in, a “recruiter” if you will.

How did you get into this business?

I went to someone in the business. It took me 6 months before he offered me a job

How did you find this guy?

He ended up being a friend of a friend. It took him 6 months to offer me a job because the way I approached him was highly unusual.

Which cartel did you work for?

Cartel del Golfo (Gulf Cartel)

What were the top commodities of your cartel when you were in? 

Coke, weed and meth. I never touched meth, that was a whole different league.

What were the wholesale prices of the drugs you were smuggling?

The price of one brick if cocaine in southern Texas/ California is about 19k. In Pittsburgh it’s about 38k.


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What Is Doctor Assisted Death Like?

March 14, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

(photo: @cristian_newman)

An immediate family member last year was diagnosed with bronchiolitis obliterans (popcorn lungs) with an unknown cause to it. It is something that is not curable. As someone who was a daily part of my life it was hard to watch the condition progress.

His condition progressively got worse and he was transferred to a palativcare physicality a couple of weeks ago. He wasn’t happy living the way he was living and slowly dying. The doctors discussed with him the option of assisted death… something he did not know about, and myself I thought was still not finalized in Canada yet, so it was a surprise to hear this.

After a long discussion with the family and doctors, he signed the papers a week ago to start the process. He wanted to end his life and do away with the suffering and the suffering to come.

So yesterday (Saturday) afternoon was the scheduled day for this to happen. The day started like any other for him… he was very upbeat, laughing, and smiling. All of his close love ones we’re around that morning. We spent hours talking, playing crib, and going through some old memories.


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What Is It Like To Be Stupid?

March 12, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

george bush

The following is a very unusual account of a true but unusual experience:

I had an arterial problem for a couple of years, which reduced blood supply to my heart and brain and depleted B vitamins from my nerves (to keep the heart in good repair). Although there is some vagueness as to the mechanisms, this made me forgetful, slow, and easily overwhelmed. In short, I felt like I was stupid compared to what I was used to, and I was.

It was frightening at first because I knew something wasn’t right but didn’t know what, and very worrying for my career because I was simply not very good any more.

However, once I got used to it and resigned myself, it was great. Even though I knew I had a worrying illness, I was happy as a pig in mud. I no longer had the arrogance of being frustrated with slow people, I abandoned many projects which reduced a lot of stress, I could enjoy films without knowing what would happen (my nickname before this used to be ‘comic book guy’ if you get the reference), and I became amazingly laid back and happy go lucky. I got on with people much better. I developed much more respect for one of my friends in particular who I always considered slow – it turned out he is much deeper than I thought, I just never had the patience to notice before. You could say I had more time to look around. The world just made more sense. The only negative, apart from struggling to perform at work, and having to write everything down, was that I no longer found sci-fi interesting – it just didn’t seem important. (I’m not joking, although it sounds like a cliché.)


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