Life Experiences

Inside The Sex Life Of A Big Ten College Basketball Player

May 22, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Interesting, Life Experiences |

There are girls for every sport. Some girls go for football players — “puck sluts” is a slang term for hockey chasers. Girls message you, get right down to the point and say “Let’s hook up.” Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat, Facebook. I’d say I’m hooking up four or five times a week. Sometimes on the weekend I’ll hook up with two or three different girls. Many of them are just hooking up with me because I’m a basketball player. They’re using me as well. We’re men, got our hormones and everything, and we kind of just want to release those every now and then. Hooking up does depend on what the girl looks like to a certain degree, and then it depends if I’m tired or not.

Sometimes the guys on the team get competitive about sex. Our freshman summer we actually made it a competition: Who could have sex with the most girls. We had a point system, and we called ourselves the EFC: Elite Fucking Committee. We’d keep track and meet up on Sunday and tell stories.


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Confessions Of A Man Who Was Chemically Castrated

May 16, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

A 62-year-old man from Massachusetts, started taking shots of Lupron after his wife discovered he’d spent the last eight years sleeping with prostitutes. Identifying as a sex addict, he felt the only way to stop his behavior — and save his 45-year marriage — was to medicate his body into submission.  The drug Lupron tricks the hormone in the brain that tells the pituitary gland to produce testosterone and “turning down the sexual volume of the mind,”

How long have you been on Lupron?

For about a year and a half now, and it’s absolutely fantastic. I haven’t had an erection in over a year.

Why is that “fantastic”?

I was going to see prostitutes behind my wife’s back, lots of them. It became a cycle I couldn’t escape. When I wanted to have sex it was like a drug addiction. Now I can see that I was constantly chasing that high. It was part of the excitement. As soon as it was over I was miserable. I’d think: What did I just do?


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What Is It Like To Have Depression?

May 15, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences, TRUTH |


Imagine your head is like a whirlpool in a hurricane – thoughts are just whirling around (and around and around) in there. Positive thoughts float, and they just sit there on the surface until they are blown away, but negative thoughts get sucked into the whirlpool and spin around, repeating themselves over and over, and worse and worse, until you have arrived at the worst-case believable scenario, at which point they sink down the spout and you internalise them as truth. Worse, the whirlpool is mesmerising – it’s a natural disaster, a tidal wave, a train wreck, and you just can’t look away.

You can throw as many “chin up!”, “get over it”, “come out to this party”, “you’ll be OK” and “just get out of the house” comments at that as you like, but it won’t do shit. My mind will just force me to blow those comments off – I’ll probably ditch the party, or make some non-committal noise about leaving the house or cheering up, so I can get back to the whirlpool. Because, I’m USED to watching the whirlpool. In some sick (mentally sick) way, I LIKE that I have a whirlpool to watch.


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A Few First Hand Accounts Of Different Life Experiences

May 9, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

What it’s like to be a man who was born with female sex organs?

So – when I look at myself naked in the mirror, I see something beautiful. Really, just the pique of feminine beauty. I have very attractive features for a woman and I don’t take issue with my body aesthetically. It’s solid. I am one hot lady. I would totally do me.

But – when I put on my chest binder and wear guy clothes, I see myself. It doesn’t matter if I’m attractive as a guy, or if other people see me as a man (not to me, anyway – some trans guys are different), or any of that. I just want to look in the mirror and see who I am. I want to be able to recognize the person looking back at me. That just doesn’t happen when I’m in “girl mode”. Wearing a dress and make-up, I feel like I’m dressing in drag. Dressing like a man, I feel like myself.

I have to hide my breasts from myself so I don’t look down and have that cognitive dissonance between who I know I am and the body I have. Because, in my head, I don’t have breasts. I have pecs. I’m not ripped. Just a small skinny dude.


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What Is It Like To Have An Autistic Child?

May 7, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

(photo: @caleb_woods)

My daughter is nearly 19, she is the 5th of 5 children and if she had been first there would likely have not been more. She is time intensive and energy draining. She is not adaptive. She is at the higher end of the specturm although she has some very extreme deficits as well. 

This past week she told me that she hates my guts, that she never gets enough attention, that is is unreasonable to only get 5 to 6 hours of my attention and conversation a day. We could never get up and just decide to go to the zoo, because she doesn’t operate on spur of the moment. Everything has to be planned well in advance. This makes life very difficult for her, because life is full of small things like ‘this road is closed, detour’ which can result in hours long rants. On some occasions it results in violent tantrums. One time, someone was running through town shooting. It was impossible to get her away from the window and onto the floor for safety, because she had a “right” to look out the window.

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A Few First Hand Accounts Of Different Life Experiences

May 2, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

What’s it like to be rich as in 1% rich?

Here are some observations from a 17-year-old still growing up in a wealthy household. 
1. I live in blissful ignorance of my family’s finances. 
Ask me about my parents’ yearly salaries, income, our investments, household net worth, etc. and I couldn’t tell you anything except that we are ultra high net worth (≥ US $50 million, don’t know how much exactly). My parents deliberately keep me in the dark when it comes to money, and I’m completely OK with that. I think they made this decision because first off, one wants some loudmouthed kid talking about rich their family is – especially not where I’m from. In the first grade, one of my classmates was kidnapped for over US $100 million (she was safely returned a day later). It is not very safe to be rich AND high-profile about it. It is also considered low-class to talk money no matter who you are. Also, they never wanted me to develop a superiority complex because of my family’s money; in my view, I never have. That being said I guess there is one “downside” to this…  
2. The rich kid’s “Invisible Hand” notion of having a never-ending, limitless amount of cash to spend.  
Obviously this isn’t a truth but a perception. By never-ending, I mean that wealth has basically been a “constant” throughout my life, not visibly affected by financial crises, tax raises and so on. By limitless, I mean that I have never faced something that I cannot afford. As such, I think that rich kids are not necessarily BIG spenders, but are CARELESS spenders for sure. When you literally have an unfathomably large amount of money at your disposal, it’s so actually easier to spend than to save. 

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What Is It Like Having Dissociative Identity Disorder?

April 25, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

(art: Paulo Sérgio Zerbato)

My ex-husband, a Scientist (Tim Cornwell), asked me to answer the question as to what it’s like to have DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder). I’ve been thinking about how to answer this for several days. It’s both a tough question and an easy one.

My DID had become more difficult because we were in the middle of selling our home in Australia and moving to the UK. Stress exacerbates my condition. I had been feeling panicky and I think I was losing bits of time. Losing time just means that someone else in my internal system is taking over for me. That is basically what DID is all about. During a child’s most creative years (3-6 years mostly), and if there is horrible abuse/trauma to that child, the child creates different “alters” to take over and protect the main “self” from having to deal with the trauma. It also sets the person up for victimization in later life.

For example, I was gang raped in a University fraternity house. I know something happened, but it wasn’t until years later that the true horror of the memory came through by abreaction (abreaction /ab·re·ac·tion/ (ab″re-ak´shun) the reliving of an experience in such a way that previously repressed emotions associated with it are released.). I don’t know for sure if “I” experienced that rape or if it was a more willing alter (some children are trained to take part in sexual episodes with perpetrators, so they might feel that inappropriate sexual activity is OK).


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Confessions Of A ‘Legal Working Girl’

April 24, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

Where do you legally work from?

I started at the Bunny Ranch and moved to The Mustang Ranch.

How did you get into the business?

Long story short. I found Dennis Hof’s number and texted him some pictures. He called me and we talked and I was in. Like I was saying earlier, it doesn’t usually happen that way but I am someone that goes after the things I want.

How many clients would you see in an average day?

I don’t know if I can average because every day is different. I guess somewhere around 4 or 5. The most I ever had in one day was nine. They aren’t all sex. Some are just bj or hj. Some last 5 minutes. You never know.

Do you shower between clients? If not, what is the refreshment routine?

Every single time I shower after seeing a client.


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What’s It Like To Go To Harvard

April 12, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

Harvard is a very extreme place. You go there and everyone is extremely smart, extremely driven, extremely focused on attaining their goals. It is so extreme that it can become scary sometimes. When you have a bunch of people with high intelligence, but who are not necessarily mature or moral, you can get some pretty nasty results (that’s how you get so many insecure, bright students going into Wallstreet to make a lot of money even though it’s screwing everyone else over). 

Even the clubs are extreme. You don’t just write for the newspaper. You have to go through a semester long competitive process to be selected into the Crimson. And after that, if you want to do well in the Crimson, you have to work your ass off and neglect your studies to be considered a true trooper. Kids here consider their extracurriculars a job. All social interactions have some sort of shady networking pre-professional slime to them.  

A lot of students are really full of themselves. They spend all their time climbing the ladders of success and trying to win everything. Everyone is super busy all the time. You have to arrange lunches with your friends about two weeks in advance. 

Harvard is not the type of place where you backstab your friend, but if your friend fell in a race, you would keep on running and not bend down to help. Students, for the most part, are only interested in their own benefit and will do things that look good, rather than things that are good. 


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Confessions Of A Former Navy SEAL

April 4, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

Why did you become a Navy Seal?

I have struggled with this question for a long time. To be brutally honest I would say insecurity. I had to prove something to myself. I chose SEAL training because it was regarded as the hardest thing you could do. To answer the next logical question here, yes I did prove it to myself and I a have lost quite a bit of my insecurity.

Did you do anything to prepare for the training before you joined?

I ran track in high school. My advice is run a lot. Run in soft sand if you can. Check out Crossfit too, it is actually some good stuff. The Crossfit football program will make you vomit blood, but it will get you in shape. DO NOT start the football version without doing the regular version for a while first.

What was your most difficult moment during training and how did you overcome it?

Thursday of hell week we were sitting in the water in the bay. It was freezing and I literally felt like I was going to die. Everything was going numb and I felt a small bit of life left in my chest. It felt like a ball of life and it was getting smaller. I overcame it by simply accepting that I was going to die before I quit. I should probably note that I had been hallucinating for over a day at this point.


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