Life Experiences


February 28, 2019 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences, TRUTH |

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3 First Hand Accounts Of Different Life Experiences

February 27, 2019 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |


What’s it like to be MGTOW (Men Going Their Own Way)?

I very much am a MGTOW man. For me it’s more freedom than I’ve experienced in decades. I love it. I can now shape my life in any way I please. I do what I want, when I want to do it and I don’t need anyone else’s approval. And while I’m doing whatever I want, I don’t need to be bombarded with phone calls asking where the hell I am and when will I be home. I don’t need to check in and, if I decide to stay out longer, I can do so without any further concern for anyone’s wants other than mine.

Also, since I am choosing to live without any women in my life, obviously I have given up on having sex with them. This is, of course, the one real down side to being MGTOW. But it actually has its own hidden good points. For example, I am no longer manipulated some woman who feels that I will grovel and do her bidding just because she hints that I might get some sex. Sex is no longer an effective weapon. I can no longer be tempted by something I know that I’m not going to get anyway.


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What’s It Like Finding Out You Have A Terminal Illness?

February 13, 2019 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences, TRUTH |

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It sucks. hah.

For me, the entire process involved a great deal of disbelief – some of it rather normal, I suppose, and some of it quite intentionally brought about by myself.

I’d actually first noticed the tumor myself.  Not even being out of my 20s yet, I had a hard time believing it could be what I suspected it was, and managed to convince myself it was fairly harmless.  At one point, while seeing a doctor for an entirely unrelated thing, I pointed out the lump to him and he gave it a quick look and feel but didn’t seem overly concerned by it and nothing came of it after that particular visit.  That ended up adding to my own idea that it was something harmless and not worth thinking about much further.

Believe it or not, I went on to essentially ignore it for over another year!  You’d imagine, first thing you’d do when suspecting something was up, would be to run off to every physician imaginable and do all you could about it.  What ended up overpowering any inclination to do just that was, instead, a desire to ignore it and almost wish it away – if I never got confirmation it was something serious and never got diagnosed with something serious… it was nothing serious! 


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Confessions Of A Sugar Baby Turned Escort

February 13, 2019 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

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Started the sugar baby thing about 5 years ago. Typical story; broke as a joke college student, saw those sugar babies on Dr. Phil claiming to make thousands without having to fuck these men, etc, etc. Within a year, I started doing full service escort work, too. I did both types of SW for the last 5 years. I’d estimate it was 60% escort work, 40% “sugaring.” I always enjoyed escorting more! Way, way more! I’ve decided recently that it’s time to finally ditch the sugar work. The following reasons are why I am getting so close to finally exiting “sugaring” altogether and focus solely on escorting:

1. Guys not wanting to use condoms. Yes, you’ll get this with full service work but I have noticed that in sugaring the guys are way more likely to pressure you into not using any protection. In fact, I think many sugar daddies actually purposely choose SBs (sugar baby) over an escort since escorts pretty much all have a strict af “no BB” policy. Since many SBs are so damn anti-escort, they easily get fooled into going raw with SDs (sugar daddy) who shame SBs for wanting to use protection. I mean, who hasn’t been told “but I’m a successful married man! I’m a CEO for crying out loud! You can’t seriously tell me that you don’t trust me enough to go without a condom, right?” They prey upon the fact that most SBs are terrified of being labelled an “escort” and some are even scared to be labelled a sex worker (hint: if you’re a SB YOU ARE A SEX WORKER, JUST DEAL WITH IT!)


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7 Soul Crushing Confessions That Will Remind You That Life Isn’t All Sunshine And Rainbows

January 30, 2019 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences, TRUTH |

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1. I was diagnosed with cancer a little over two weeks ago, after a regular checkup. Turns out I have a tumour on my colon that has spread to other areas (liver and lungs so far) and will require extensive chemo and surgery for any chance to live longer than 8 months

I’m not having any treatment and I haven’t told my wife because she’ll only pressure me to get the treatment, which result in months of pain and suffering for a relatively small chance

Instead, I’m making sure our last few months together are filled with only happy memories. I’m starting work later and finishing earlier each day, to make her breakfast in bed and take her on dates in the evenings

My landlord I rent my workshop from has agreed to let me run my business rent free for the next 6 months, which means significantly less financial stress and I can save a lot more, so she has something to carry her over afterwards

I hope she’ll forgive me for taking this path


2. My 13 year old died in Peru after getting caught in a whirlpool. We were on vacation. His mom (my ex) blamed me for his death and our other son also blames me so he doesn’t speak to me. He’s now 13 too. I don’t force him to see me. When I drive home from work, I pretend that I am talking to my son about how his day was at school, what kind of music he wants to listen to, what he wants for dinner, etc. That is why I haven’t gotten a new car. There are just too many memories.


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What It’s Like To Lose Your Child Unexpectedly?

January 16, 2019 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

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My 18-year-old daughter died in a car accident on her way to school a few weeks ago. I’m going to try to convey what it’s like.

Police officer shows up at the door: This will haunt me for the rest of my life. My fiancee and I were sleeping, as we work 3rd shift. The beating on the door was loud… I’m not sure how long he was there before it woke me up. It did not wake my fiance up. I looked out the window and saw an unmarked SUV but I could tell it was the police. I answered the door and he said my name. I answered “yes”. He said my daughter’s name and I said “yes”. He said that she was in an accident (I knew what was coming next) and that she had expired. I went to my knees and made noises I’ve never heard myself make before. He got me inside to the couch and asked if anyone else was there. I told him my fiance’s name as I was crying uncontrollably. He yelled her name a number of times and she came out. He started talking to her and she started yelling “Oh my God” and came to hold me. She and my daughter were very close.


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Confessions Of A Dude Addicted To The Dope Game

January 16, 2019 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences, TRUTH |

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The information provided in this interview is for entertainment purposes only. We do not condone the sale or purchase of illegal drugs.

I’ve been drug dealing for the past 4 years now. I did have a year where I didn’t sell anything but besides that, it’s been pretty steady. The problem is, I just don’t think I can stop. It’s become an addiction. I don’t give a fuck about getting high. I smoke weed and drink alcohol occasionally but, besides that, I haven’t touched another drug.

There’s probably a lot that has lead up to this point, starting from a young age, but 4 years ago I found the markets and Bitcoin. It was at a point in my life where things were low and I found drug dealing. My first package was a package of Xanax bars. I made $1,000 profit in about 4 days because, at the time, pressed bars weren’t very well known so my prices were dirt cheap compared to everyone else’s.

That’s the moment things changed for me. The moment where I fucked everything up for myself.

4 years later, here I am. It’s a fucking addiction. When I stop, it’s for a month, max besides the one year I quit due to personal and OPSEC (Operational Security) related reasons. It’s a craving I can’t make go away. The adrenaline of doing something illegal, the money, the respect, the power you have over your little group of people…I don’t know…it’s impossible for me to explain so I’ll explain the more addicted part now.


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4 Thoroughly Depressing Confessions

December 20, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences |

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I have lung cancer and Stage 4 Non-Hodgkin Lymphoma

Non-smoker by the way, just lost the lottery, that’s all. Considering the damage found from early on during the initial diagnosis, I am not expected to live for too long. I don’t want to get into details in case some friends recognize this.

I’m roughly 27 years old. I’ve been trying out new things, I have had so much fun with new hobbies, instruments I’ve learned over the last year, and have developed a routine for the gym since high school. I didn’t manage to go into what I wanted, entering college, but I’m happy with the jobs I managed to pick up from connections. I’m very happy with what I’ve done so far.

But the one thing I’ve tried to do, and have failed at, is to find a girl who likes me. I don’t bring up what I have and my outlook, but as of dozens of approaches and some new friendships kindled, there has been no one attracted to me. Apart from my physique, I’m not physically attractive up in the face, to say the least. Been trying different things since high school, nothing has changed as of yet.

I don’t want a hookup, not that I have one so far, or a pity fuck since I don’t want to bring up my cancer as I don’t want it to be the reason or my identity, but honestly this is the one thing that keeps me up at night. I’m still waiting for someone and I likely won’t find this person.


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Confessions Of A Dude Who Is Pursuing The MGTOW Lifestyle

November 20, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences, TRUTH |

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What is MGTOW?

Men Going Their Own Way are guys who’ve decided to forgo relationships due to a perceived imbalance of power between men and women, and have modified their lifestyle and outlook on life to continue without women.

I’m a red pill man (red pill is the umbrella that MGTOW falls under), but may or not be mgtow. I’ll wait until they define what is or isn’t mgtow before I say, since it fluctuates. Either way, I’ve had some tragic and rather traumatic experiences with women, or have seen it in close friends.

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What’s It Like To Lose Everything

November 1, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: Life Experiences, TRUTH |

I once had it all – literally what seemed to be the pinnacle of my life or so it seemed. We just purchased a beautiful new home in a great area of the city. Zero debt plus 6 figures in the bank. Cute new car. Great position at work. To the outside world, we seemed like the “it” couple. Then everything came crashing down.. fast and HARD!

Marriage dissolved almost overnight. I lasted ONE year in that brand new house. ONE. For reasons too long to list, my 14 yr relationship with what was supposed to be my “life” partner dissolved. And with it, I also lost my immediate family – goodbye brother and mother (dad croaked years ago).

SAME effin time, my work decided to let me go – AFTER dedicating 10 years of my life to them and being promoted 4–5xs. I didn’t see it coming at all. It was almost like I was blindsided. I was in the middle of a monster release, was working around the clock – so much so that my European counterparts were convinced I never slept. My developers, everyone was BLINDSIDED that THEY (VPs, CTO, etc) chose to cut me off. Me and my barely 6 figure salary. I believe I was paid about high $90k then.


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