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Confessions Of A Woman Who Spent 16 Months As A Full-Time BDSM Slave

July 27, 2017 | No Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

My childhood

I was an accident. Both my parent made that pretty clear in my mind, for almost all of my childhood and teenage years. My father was 53 when I was born and my mother 38. They had been unhappily married for 20 years and one night, my father forced himself on my mother years after she had stopped taking the pill and 9 months later, I arrived.

I grew up miserable. My father was an alcoholic. He worked as a carpenter and worked long hours outside of the house. As soon as he came home, he would start drinking and later in the evening, beat my mother for an offense or another he thinks she did to him.

My mother on the other hand is I guess a co-alcoholic and somehow thinks that our life was normal, that every husband in the world is like my father and every wife is like her. You know women who try to pretend that their husband loves them even if he beats her? My mom’s rationalization isn’t that he still loved her but rather than love simply doesn’t exist. She was always a stay at home mom and if she left, not only would should she be alone in life but she would have no money. Needless to say, neither have any real education.

Both pretty much ignored me all my life. If my mother was hungry, she would prepare a meal for lunch when I came back from school, otherwise, I learned to fix myself a sandwich quite early. Only supper was guaranteed to be on the table because my father ate with us.

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A Glimpse Into The Lavish Lifestyle Of The Kid’s Of Mexican Drug Cartels

July 24, 2017 | 2 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

The children of Mexico’s most powerful narcos have taken to Instagram to show off their luxurious lifestyles. Using the hashtags #narcos and #narcostyle on Instagram and Twitter, these cartel kids have shown off their extravagant tastes.

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19 Survivors Of Suicide Reveal Their First Thoughts After Realizing They Hadn’t Succeeded

July 20, 2017 | 1 Comment » | Topics: TRUTH |

1. “Fuck I’m still here”

 I almost don’t want to share this because I don’t know if it’s helpful for people who are going through it right now. But I’ve seen and read so many accounts of people who changed their mind when it seemed to be too late, or realised all their problems were insignificant once they were almost dead. But that didn’t happen to me.

When I started vomiting blood and bile, all I could think was “I really hope I’m not throwing up the pills right now”. I also felt disgusting and ashamed, but I didn’t want to live and I didn’t change my mind. When I woke up I was covered in blood (some from vomit, but a lot from my arms and legs which I’d absolutely shredded with a blade.) there was sick all over the floor and in my hair, and my clothes and face were wet with tears. I was a mess, and I felt like I’d fucked up my life in every possible way, and I have never felt so disappointed or disgusted with myself than when I properly realised it hadn’t worked.

And honestly I would’ve loved that to be a wake up call or the moment I changed, but it wasn’t. I felt that same disgust for some years afterwards. To me, that was confirmation that I’d never be happy, and that I’d never settle into life in the way that everyone else seemed to. I just accepted that I’d never be happy, and that I’d never stop wanting to die. I can’t really explain why I thought this. I just believed there was something inherently wrong with me, an illness, or something about who I am as a person, which meant I would always feel suicidal.

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Social Justice Warriors….LOL!

July 19, 2017 | 4 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

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The TRUTH Is An Integral Part Of A Healthy Diet

July 18, 2017 | 2 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

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14 Graduates Of For-Profit Colleges Reveal Life After Graduating

July 17, 2017 | 3 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

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My roommate graduated from Devry. He spent the next year working at a grocery store and now works at one of those call centers bugging people over the phone to donate money to various causes.

 

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My husband went to Full Sail for audio engineering. He didn’t end up finding a job in his field. He ended up going to a real college a few years later. His friend that went for graphic design did alright. I wouldn’t call it a total waste though. He had a lot of fun and he’s really good at hooking up the stereo and television. Sometimes I like to be like, “oh no! I can’t figure out why the DVD player isn’t registering sound! If only someone went to school for this and could fix it!” Then he gets to move some cables around and be a hero. Also he will professionally mix dumb little songs that we make up for my amusement. Is this a good use of $30k? That’s up to you to decide.

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9 Alimony Horror Stories That Will Make You Never Want To Get Married

July 11, 2017 | 3 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

1.  My father-in-law’s ex-wife has been living with someone for 7 years. They wear rings on their wedding fingers. When the boyfriend was in the hospital, he listed her on the hospital records as his wife, they are each other’s  beneficiary in case of death, and the list goes on. “My father-in-law pays her $3000 per month – 50 percent of his income. In the divorce, she  received 100 percent of his retirement ($150,000), which she has spent, and is the sole beneficiary of his $1 million life insurance policy, even though he has remarried. After her  son turned 18 and the child support ended, she took him back to court and had the child support rolled into alimony. “She would not settle for a reduction of alimony, so based on F.S. 61. 14 [the new  cohabitation law], they went to court. My husband and his brother testified. We watch him  struggle while she goes on extravagant vacations (California, Vegas, and a 5-day cruise – all in 4 months). She had a brand-new home built and then remodeled. Her boyfriend’s Crown Victoria is paid for. She makes $11 per hour working 25-30 hours a week. The boyfriend makes $30,000. The ruling went to the ex-wife. So he is still paying $3000 a month and now he is responsible for her attorney’s fees, $10,000. This poor man is supporting not only his ex-wife but her boyfriend, and the courts are allowing it.”

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The Last Two Letters From A Man Sitting On Death Row

June 27, 2017 | 4 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

Death row inmates deal with their demons in different ways. Some clutch their faith. Others draw or paint or read voraciously. William Van Poyck chose to write. He published three books, wrote his own appeals and penned long letters to his sister, Lisa. In 2005, Lisa began publishing her brother’s letters on a blog called “Death Row Diary.” Some of the more powerful entries are the last ones, after Van Poyck’s death warrant was signed and he learned the date that he would die. Here are his last two letters to his sister.

 

June 3, 2013

Dear Sis~

Ten days ’till departure time. You already know that they killed my neighbor, Elmer, 5 days ago. Then they moved me into his cell. After they execute someone they move the rest of us down one cell, working our way to cell#1, the launching pad to the gurney next door.  This is a bad luck cell; very few of us get out of here alive!  In two days I’ll go onto Phase II and they’ll move all  my property from my cell, and post a guard in front of my cell 24/7 to record everything I do. These will be hectic days, freighted with emotion, all the final letters, all the final phone calls, final visits, final goodbyes.  Things have become even more regimented as “established procedures” increasingly take over. More cell front visits from high ranking administration and DOC officials asking if everything is O.K., forms to fill out (cremation or burial?).  I declined the offer of a “last meal”. I’m not interested in participating in that time-worn ritual, to feed some reporter’s breathless post-execution account. Besides, material gratification will be the last thing on my mind as I prepare to cross over to the non-material planes. Watching Elmer go through his final days really drove home how ritualized this whole process has become; the ritual aspect perhaps brings some numbing comfort – or sense of purpose – to those not really comfortable with this whole killing people scheme.  This is akin to participating in a play where the participants step to a rote cadence, acting out their parts in the script, with nobody pausing to question the underlying premise.  It’s like a Twilight Zone episode where you want to grab someone, shake them hard, and yell “Hey, wake up! Don’t you know what’s going on here?!!!”  

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