19 Survivors Of Suicide Reveal Their First Thoughts After Realizing They Hadn’t Succeeded

April 19, 2016 | 13 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

1. “Fuck I’m still here”

 I almost don’t want to share this because I don’t know if it’s helpful for people who are going through it right now. But I’ve seen and read so many accounts of people who changed their mind when it seemed to be too late, or realised all their problems were insignificant once they were almost dead. But that didn’t happen to me.

When I started vomiting blood and bile, all I could think was “I really hope I’m not throwing up the pills right now”. I also felt disgusting and ashamed, but I didn’t want to live and I didn’t change my mind. When I woke up I was covered in blood (some from vomit, but a lot from my arms and legs which I’d absolutely shredded with a blade.) there was sick all over the floor and in my hair, and my clothes and face were wet with tears. I was a mess, and I felt like I’d fucked up my life in every possible way, and I have never felt so disappointed or disgusted with myself than when I properly realised it hadn’t worked.

And honestly I would’ve loved that to be a wake up call or the moment I changed, but it wasn’t. I felt that same disgust for some years afterwards. To me, that was confirmation that I’d never be happy, and that I’d never settle into life in the way that everyone else seemed to. I just accepted that I’d never be happy, and that I’d never stop wanting to die. I can’t really explain why I thought this. I just believed there was something inherently wrong with me, an illness, or something about who I am as a person, which meant I would always feel suicidal.

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18 Examples Of Extremely Well-Preserved Dead People

April 19, 2016 | 1 Comment » | Topics: Interesting |

1. Vladimir Lenin (1870 – 1924) :  RUSSIA

1. Vladimir Lenin (1870 - 1924) :  RUSSIA

This horrifyingly alive looking man is Vladimir Lenin – the father of Russian Communism and the first leader of the Soviet Union. His death was followed by the consecutive succession of his throne by Stalin.The government decided to preserve the body of Lenin for future generations. As no attempts to mummify a body for generations had ever been attempted before, the Russians had to invent a highly complex process of embalming. Lenin’s body requires extensive chemical baths, injections and evaluation. The body’s organs were removed and replaced with a humidifier and pumping system, designed to maintain the body’s core temperature and fluid intake. His mummy is so well preserved as is evident from the image that it looks as if he will wake up any time now. Creepy isn’t it?

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12 Glorious Clips For Your Consideration

April 19, 2016 | 1 Comment » | Topics: Clips |

Man Risks His Life To Save a Dog From Certain Death

 

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Hot Instagram Babe Of The Day: Joanna Marie

April 19, 2016 | No Comments » | Topics: Babes |

hot instagram babe of the day Joanna Marie

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Awesome Stuff Around The Internet

April 18, 2016 | No Comments » | Topics: Links |

15 Photos Guaranteed To Put A Smile On Your Face – Ned Hardy

Caveman’s Hot Picks Of The Day – Caveman Afterdark

Here’s Emily Ratajkowski Getting Cheeky on Instagram Because Monday – Maxim

 Meet The Russian Kim Kardashian (35 pics) – Leenks

20+ Unbelievable Photos Showing That Angle Is Everything – Linkiest

$1.4M Painting of Nude Trump Triggers Death Threats – Newser

While Exploring A 100 Year Old Abandoned Funhouse This Guy Found Something Haunting – Slip Talk

I Drank a Gallon of Water a Day for 30 Days. Here’s What Happened – Thrillist

Watch Pron Star Jayden Jaymes Ask A Professional Accountant For Advice on Taxes – Rant Lifestyle

Things You Didn’t Know About Offshore Banking – Ranker

He’s had a hard knock life, but finally, this pup is going home — watch his emotional reaction – Rare

15 Movies that Can Also Be Watched Backwards – TV Overmind

This Woman Turned Her Collection of Unsolicited Dick Pics into an Art Show – VICE

You Won’t Believe What 30 Bond Girls Look like Now – Worthly

Lindsey Pelas Pouring Water on her Massive Jugs – Drunken Stepfather

Alexis Ren Looking Hot For A Photoshoot – G-Celeb

Bras are optional on Mondays – Radass

38 Life Lessons from 38 Years on the Planet – Medium

20 Most Expensive Foods In The World – And Where To Get Them – The Richest

38 Red Hot Instagram Pics of Galina Dub – Regretful Morning

Emily Ratajkowski playing the Kardashians like a fiddle – Celeb Slam

Our 40 Favorite Women This Week – Suburban Men

Some say Asians do it better (36 Photos) – Bad Sentinel

Perfect body on this girl (nsfw) – Ehowa


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The Dumping Grounds

April 18, 2016 | 1 Comment » | Topics: The Dumping Grounds |

funny pictures and videos of the day

funny pictures and videos of the day

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A Tribute To The Art Of Jiu-Jitsu

April 18, 2016 | No Comments » | Topics: Fight |

Jeff Glover and Ryan Hall flow rolling

 

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A Damn Fine Collection Of Fascinating Photos

April 18, 2016 | 4 Comments » | Topics: Interesting |

Canadian police officers meditating before they start their day 

 

Group therapy session at San Quentin prison 

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