What's heroin like?
It's like having the worst girlfriend ever, who you are madly in love with but who treats you like shit, makes you sell your car and house and furniture and even your high school yearbook that your crush from 10th grade signed and told you that you were cute. She's told you to stop talking to anyone you've ever cared about, they don't want to talk to you while you're still dating her anyways. You sell your clothes so she can go out and buy new ones. You eat ramen every meal so she ca eat at the best restaurant in town. In the morning you think about her and in the evening you think about her and when you go to take a crap but you can't because you're constipated you're reminded of her. You wake up and if she's not in bed with you you get the chills, your eyes water, you have diarrhea, you sneeze, your muscles ache, you have anxiety, you have depression, you don't want to eat because food isn't appealing even though your stomach is rumbling, you don't particularly want to drink but you're dehydrated so you force yourself to drink some water, and during all this your skin is crawling as if it was dirty covered in goose-bumps from who knows where and you wish you were still asleep so you could at least pretend she was still in the bed with you. But you're awake now. So you get out of bed, and you go find her. Maybe today you won't have to do something that compromises your morals to find out where she's gone, but really you don't even care, as long as there is a way. You walk an hour and forty five minutes to get on the bus. You travel for another 45 minutes on public transportation. You get off at the train station in the bad part of town. All the while you have to shit so bad but you know once you find her that will be solved. You're hungry but dont want to eat, once you find her you can eat. You feel dirty and sad and anxious but once you find her she'll bathe you and make you happy and calm. But right now your walking through the ghetto. You walk another 20 minutes. Maybe it's cold and raining, if so you are so so so cold. Maybe it's hotter than hell and that just makes you feel dirtier. You find a guy that knows where she is. He says he'll go get her and bring her to you. And the cops pass you as you're talking to him and they have to know what's up. What's someone like you doing in this part of town? So the 10 minute wait for her to come back to you accompanied by the guy who could give two shits about you as long as you bring him money seems like an eternity. Maybe he'll run off with her and your money. Maybe she wont be looking so hot today, maybe she won't be herself. Maybe he'll come back with a woman you don't know and don't want to meet but now your money is gone and you're broke and sick and a good few hours away before you can get some more money and the world might as well be over in your opinion. But your girlfriend comes back, he brings her, and she gives you a kiss on the cheek. Then you go home, to your mattress and your overdue rent and the lack of food and the piled up bills and the same clothes you've been wearing for three days and your parents that have called but you never answer and your friends that invite you out but you never go, but you're home and she's there with you. Eventually you go to bed. But she's never there the next morning, and you know she won't be, and you wish someone invented a way to pause time, or go back in time, to that first time you met her, the first couple months when you guys hung out, before she made you sell everything to be with her, but you can't and you're fucked. And you know it.
Fist Of The North Star is the greatest, most wicked, amazing, animation I have ever seen. Fist is a pure blend of violence and gripping storyline. From the start you are drawn into the apocalyptic world of the future, and the forces at work within this world. Heads explode, people are sliced and diced, characters go splat, belly buttons expand and explode and you can’t help but love it. Fist is the exact opposite of the new generation of anime, which has become synonymous with big eyed characters that focus on being cute….it is stripped downed, raw, no hold barred tale of survival in a dog eat dog world of chaos, disorder and violence glossed over with a dark shade of the 80′s. I cannot tell you how many times I took pleasure in the delight of having the opportunity of watching this film with a virgin pair of eyes and it gives me great pleasure to be able to deliver this movie in its entirety to you guys. Happy viewing everyone!
If you’re a avid voyeur of stupidity like me, this video is definitely up your aisle. You seen videos of dudes trying and failing miserably at eating 1 Ghost Pepper, check out this video of this guy trying 10! Yes 10 fcuking pit of hell burning peppers which are rated at over 1,000,000 Scoville units each. To put that in perspective, a jalapeno is rated at 5,000 Scoville units. Enjoy the stupidity!
I just want to thank all you guys for the kind words and support that you have given me and I truly, truly appreciate it and it means so fcuking much to me to have your support and I am infinitely grateful to have such awesome people who come to the site. Before we get this show started again, I just want to post this quote from the movie Rocky Balboa. I wanted to share this quote with you guys because it helped me through the worst days of my life and hopefully it can help anyone out there going through a rough patch of life. I’m pretty sure I’ve posted it a few times before, but this time it has so much more meaning to me. While I was sitting in the E.R, lost, confused and totally out of my mind, no one could seem to bring me back to the sanity of reality. My friends, my roomate, the nurses, the doctor…no could snap me out of it, that is until my brother came. He came in wearing his Rocky t-shirt and stood before me, told me that it would be ok and quoted this from the movie
It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain’t how hard you hit; it’s about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward.
And after hearing those words, I snapped out of it. Sanity started to set back in and I could feel myself returning to the safety of reality. I felt like myself again, I felt all the good memories returning. I felt the desire to live again. The quote has a different meaning for everybody and for me, it means to not to let drugs and alcohol destroy my goals, my dreams and my ambitions….to not let it come in the way of me becoming the person I’ve always wanted to be and to do the things I’ve always wanted to do. I have been given a second chance at life and I will not let this bullshiet destroy it again. From this day forward I WILL LIVE LIFE.Thank you guys for listening and for everyone out there who needs someone to talk to, know this, WE will be there to listen and guide you through. You are not alone.