I started taking drugs at a very young age, but the one I felt the most connected with, apart from cannabis, was called ‘Blue Pentagon’, basically LSD! Every time I did acid, I experienced something new and spectacular. Obviously through the senses which are available to me! I never had any visual images come to me. I can’t see or imagine what light or dark might look like. With LSD and cannabis though, I experienced so much through my hearing, touch and emotions that it was already enough for me to take!
There was a marked diﬀerence between hallucinations and dreaming. On acid, I deﬁnitely knew that I was awake, although on unfamiliar territory: not like dreaming. During my psychedelic experiences, whenever I listened to music, I felt as if I was immersed in the most beautiful waterfall ever. The episode of the waterfall was the nearest I ever came to experiencing anything like synesthesia. The music of Bach’s third Brandenburg concerto brought on the waterfall eﬀect. I could hear violins playing in my soul and found myself having a one hour long monologue using diﬀerent tones of voices. I remember they sounded extremely unique! LSD gave everything ‘height’. The sounds coming from songs I would normally listen to became three dimensional, deep and delayed. It seemed that music began coming apart and unravelling. My favourite track began to echo in my mind, as if my brain would hear the music played in the present, but while still hanging onto what I had heard a second before. It was like a tape loop that kept on echoing.
This led me to look within and I became more aware of myself and the understanding of life, of people, and the music I was listening to. I felt like my brain was overloaded with information and I could not take all of it in at once! On one of my trips, I remember ﬁnding myself touching a tree, on the way to my friend’s house. This felt amazing! Just like a tree from the forest, or the jungle. Walking that day felt almost as if I wasn’t heavy on land and I was racing at such a tremendous speed that it felt like I was actually ﬂying.