I am a 30 year old who has never had a relationship with a female. I’ve being suffering with depression about this fact for years. I am also not happy with how I look and I am over weight.
So this weekend I went on a holiday to a foreign country and I knew before going I was going to make an attempt to progress my situation and I started searching for sex workers in the area I was staying.
Searching online for them was making me anxious as in my entire life I have kissed 2 or 3 girls and this always involved me being super drunk.
I found a brothel that was a 2 minute walk from my hotel and I decided it was soo close that I could not back out of this ( I have searched for escorts online for years and always pussied out of it because I was too terrified of it)
So I head off to the brothel and I am shaking with fear and I go into the ally that the brothel is in and i make a pass of the area to recon it and i stop at the end of the street.
Im fighting my own mind saying this is it if I dont do this now it will never happen. So I turn around and walk into the place and I buzz my way past a security door and walk into a reception room where I am greeted and told to take a seat while the girls come out.
I sit down and before I’ve even had time to take in my surrondings there is 7 or 8 girls standing before me in underwear, which i have never seen before in real life and im like omg wow.
So straight away Icome out and tell them sorry I’ve never did this before.
"Do I choose 1 of the girls?" and the receptionist laughs and says, "Yes, what do you prefer?" and I say something else which i cant even remember now but then my brain told me to shut the fuck up before they think im a cop or something.
I pick a girl and she leads me into a room.
Im in the room and there is a bed and a shower and a seating area and I close the door behind me and when I turn around she is already taking off her top and her boobs are amazing. This is the first time in my life I’ve seen boobs in real life that was a sexual situation not like a topless person on the beach or anything and I’m like oh wow.
I have never being naked in front of anyone and because I am overweight I dont even take off my t-shirts or wear a t-shirt without a top over it but I instantly started getting undressed and I’m thinking to myself omg I’m getting naked in front of another person.
I’m standing in front of her and I still have my underwear on and I tell her I’m a virgin and I’ve never done this before and she laughs at me and says "omg what you’re a virgin?"
She tells me to lay on the bed aand so I sit on the edge of the bed facing away from her with my underwear on and I’m like, this is it I’m about to get fully naked in front of a girl.
I take off my underwear and lay down on the bed and she instantly starts warming me up and I was convinced that as soon as she would touch me I would premature ejectulate since thats what the movies say is meant to happen but I dont, infact my penis feels numb or desentitized. It takes about 10 minutes for me to get an erection but anyway we do the handjob/blowjob/sex and then she cleans me up.
I wasnt very good at it either and I also messed up because when she got me hard and asked if we wanted to fuck now, I said not yet lets continue this ( oral sex) and I ended up ejectulating. W
When it came to the sex part we did 3 postions. First with her on top and then she asked me to get up and do doggystyle, but I was soo tired that I only managed about a dozen thrusts before my legs and joints were on fire. I had to stop. I started losing the erection because I felt embarrased about being so out of shape and also I think the condom took away alot of the feeling.
She told me to lay down again and she started oral sex to try and get me hard again but I looked at the clock and realized time was running out and my penis started falling asleep in her mouth. I started laughing and saying "nooooo come back littleman." She started laughing and said sorry but its not possible if penis doesnt want to play.
I asked her if this means im still a virgin because I didnt ejectulate from the sex and she said no you are not a virgin anymore.
She said I did well because alot of men ejectulate instantly then we started getting dressed
I leave the establishment in complete shellshock and outside a random person asks me for a lighter and I think he’s an undercover cop. I closed my eyes and said sorry I dont smoke expecting search lights to come on and me getting arrested, but nothing happens.
I walk back to my hotel and I go into my room and sit on the bed and im just thinking to myself that I cant believe what i just did.
15 years or so of expectations and thinking I would be a virgin forever and its gone in 30 minutes or so.
I have now left and returned home and I guess I have the blues.
I’m a huge computer game geek and I’ve being unable to focus on gaming at all.
I have a huge desire to exercise and get in shape.
I had my first workout session today and I broke all my previous records.
I went to the shop and bought healthy ingredients for a weight loss diet and im just hoping I can stick with it and not sink back into my old lifestyle.