This is going to sound really dumb, but I (22m) have wanted to for the past year or so. I just feel empty and I want to try something new and exciting.
My plan is to do it just once and then be done with it. I have a family that I barely speak to due to being estranged (hard childhood) so that makes my decision easier.
No one will be in the cross fire if I take it too far. I know many people will think that I am extremely stupid for making this choice, but I am tired of being bored in my life. I have always felt incomplete ever since I was a child.
Hopefully this will be a good experience, If I choose to go through with it.
Let’s cut to the chase: you’re standing at the precipice of a decision that could alter the entire trajectory of your life. And not in a “wow, I’m so glad I took that pottery class” kind of way.
First off, I get it. Life can feel mundane, especially when you’re carrying the weight of a difficult childhood and estrangement. That emptiness you’re describing? It’s a void many of us have felt. But here’s the kicker: meth isn’t going to fill that void. It’s going to blow it wide open and leave you with a crater where your life used to be.
You say you plan to do it “just once.” But that’s like saying you’re going to jump into a tornado and expect to control where it takes you. Meth doesn’t play by those rules. It rewires your brain faster than you can say “one and done.”
Let’s talk about what you’re really after here. You’re not looking for meth; you’re looking for meaning. For excitement. For a life that doesn’t feel like a monotonous grind. But chasing that through meth is like trying to cure your loneliness by setting yourself on fire – sure, you’ll get attention, but at what cost?
Here’s the truth: there’s no shortcut to fulfillment. It’s a journey, often a messy one, filled with ups and downs. But it’s in that journey that we find ourselves, build resilience, and create a life worth living.
Instead of meth, why not try:
- Therapy: Dive into that childhood stuff. It’s not fun, but it’s where real growth happens.
- Travel: If you’re gonna risk something, risk getting lost in a new city or culture.
- Extreme sports: Want a rush? Try skydiving. At least the parachute company won’t try to keep you addicted.
- Volunteer: Sometimes helping others is the fastest way to help ourselves.
- Create something: Art, music, writing – channel that restlessness into creation.
Look, I can’t make this decision for you. But I can tell you that the excitement you’re chasing? It’s out there, and it doesn’t come in crystal form. It comes from facing your fears, healing your wounds, and building a life that excites you every damn day.
You’re 22. You’ve got a whole life ahead of you to fill with experiences that’ll make meth look like a sad joke. Don’t trade that potential for a chemical shortcut that leads nowhere good.
Choose the harder path. Choose growth. Choose life.