1. heroic dose
A very large quantity of hallucinogenic substance, that, when ingested, results in a powerful and often life-changing trip.
I was at a psytrance festival in Hungary called SUN. I took way to much acid (about 3-5k mcgs or even more), i just drank it like water and gave away all my money and acid (worth about €1k), because i wanted to leave the physical-material realm and only live as spirit.
So i continued to run around butt naked and had the most intense almost never ending trip:
I became a dog; a stone fossil of the last human; i talked with alien life forms; i was a kobold hiding in the shadows; became Jesus, Hitler, a god that juggled with star systems; the last Jew; i experienced being cremated as a Jew inside a German combustion engine; i was a skull collecting mass murderer; i layed in the bushes and became one with Gaia; i flew with the light of a star to infinity in order to colonize it by pure thought; i lived many different past lifes and i experienced why my brother is my brother, because we hated us in an earlier life and i killed him/or he killed me and that’s why we love each other so much in our present lifes… and much more i don’t remember at the moment.
The festival already ended and i wandered into the forrest for 3 days, still tripping hardcore. I only remember fragments of this episode, but i followed some lights until i got back to the area. When i came back I was totally anxious and thought for a couple of days everyone was out to kill me in some sort of ritual.
Then i collected myself for a couple of days with the help of some organizers and workers who gave me food and clothes (because i had nothing left at all, 1500km away from home), helped them collect trash and stuff until i got a lift to the embassy in Budapest from which i called home and got money to get a train ticket back home.
It was heaven and hell and everything beyond.
edit: i just wanted to add, this whole thing was very immature, dumb and dangerous. My feet were bloody open from dacning and walking barefoot. It was so incredible mentally exhausting that i almost got insane. I thought i died and was in everlasting purgatory. For times i just wanted to die and be released. So please don’t get inspired by this, because another person with another mental characteristics could eventually not do this without serious mental or physical consequences or even worse…
Setting goals is a fundamental component to long-term success. The basic reason for this is that you can’t get where you are trying to go until you clearly define where that is. Research studies show a direct link between goals and enhanced performance in business. Goals help you focus and allocate your time and resources efficiently, and they can keep you motivated when you feel like giving up.
1. Think about the “big picture.”
Ask yourself some important questions about what you want for your life. The answers to this question can be as general as “I want to be happy,” or “I want to help people,” or “I want to be fit.”
- These general statements can help hone in on the things that really matter to you. Recognizing the things you value will guide your decision-making and keep you focused on your end goals.
- Think of the answers to your “big picture” questions as things you hope to attain 10, 15, or 20 years from now.
2. Break the “big picture” down into smaller and more specific goals
Consider areas of your life that you either want to change or that you feel you would like to develop with time. Begin to ask yourself questions about what you’d like to achieve in each area and how you would like to approach it within a five year timeframe.
- In terms of your career, you may ask yourself what your ideal job is. What steps do you need to take to get that job? What are the roadblocks? Do you need a specific degree or certificate?
- With financial goals, you may want to consider where the money will come from. How much money you will need to live comfortably? What are the best ways to spend or invest money? Do you want a house, new car, or to begin a retirement plan?
- When it comes to family, do you want to have children, and if so, when? Do you want to have biological children, or are you open to adoption or having stepchildren?
- In thinking about romantic goals, you may consider the type of relationship you want (long-term partner, marriage, open-relationship, etc.), and how you will prioritize the time spent with a partner. What are the characteristics of a mate that make them a good fit for you?
- In terms of education, think about what course of study you’d like to pursue. Are you going to school to further you career? What types of courses do you need to complete for advancement at work? Are there alternate ways to enter the career you want, like apprenticeships or internships?
- In thinking about physical goals, consider whether changes need to be made to make you healthy. What can you do to maintain good health into old age? Think about whether there are specific physical challenges you want to meet such as a major mountain climbing expo or a marathon.
For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.
People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learnt never to underestimate someone’s capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventually acceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.
When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:
1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.
2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.
By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.
The German photographer Ralf Brunner made a deeply moving photo-documentary depicting the last 4 years of a heroin addict life with AIDS. He shows us the depression and feeling of a situation none of us would want to be in. Extremely disturbing at some points, but it really shows depth of emotion in every photograph. You can look at one and feel depressed, sad, lonely and feel the unbearable pain suffered by this man.
Life sucks. (37 years old). Most days, I consider killing myself for being such a waste of human existence. Ashamed of being a male human. Feelings of inadequacy.
Like I can’t believe I was the fastest sperm that came out of my father’s balls. Unable to attract a woman (despite no physical defects) in an age where casual sex is not just the norm, it is like breathing air. It feels like I wish I had some sort of disease or crippling physical defect that would at least give me an excuse for not having done it.
It has affected my confidence and self esteem (from work, to relationships with friends and family) and basically shattered me in ways not many would understand. The longer time passed (I am talking about my early 20′s), the more anti-social, afraid to just interact in the society I became. Women could sense the awkwardness, the shyness, they could sniff it out. Like I had a tattoo on my forehead that said “VIRGIN”
In my later 20′s, I became extremely bitter, full of hatred for myself, women, successful normal men.
In my 30′s, it became less about the sex and more about the not having any intimacy of any kind. Not knowing what it feels like to kiss a girl, make out, cuddle, anything.
So far I have refused to pay for it as then I think of it as being unable to naturally get a woman. It would still make me a freak. I have no issue with people paying for it, but usually people who pay for it, have already attracted women normally without it, and just want physical sex without effort of dating and etc…. So it is not the same.
Take A Break From The Grind To Remember That There Is A Big, Beautiful World Out There Waiting To Be Explored!
Writer and reporter, Richard Deitsch asked his Twitter followers to share photos that capture important moments in people’s lives. Here are some of the most memorable shares.
We have all read about people who are successful briefly. They win a gold medal, make a fortune, or star in one great movie and then disappear.…These examples do not inspire me!
My focus and fascination is with people who seem to do well in many areas of life, and do it over and over through a lifetime. In entertainment, I think of Paul Newman and Bill Cosby. In business, I think of Ben and Jerry (the ice cream moguls)…As a Naval Officer, husband, businessman, politician and now as a mediator and philanthropist on the world stage, Jimmy Carter has had a remarkable life. We all know examples of people who go from one success to another.
These are the people who inspire me! I’ve studied them, and I’ve noticed they have the following traits in common:
They work hard! Yes, they play hard, too! They get up early, they rarely complain, they expect performance from others, but they expect extraordinary performance from themselves. Repeated, high-level success starts with a recognition that hard work pays off.
They are incredibly curious and eager to learn. They study, ask questions and read—constantly! An interesting point, however: While most of them did well in school, the difference is that they apply or take advantage of what they learn. Repeated success is not about memorizing facts, it’s about being able to take information and create, build, or apply it in new and important ways. Successful people want to learn everything about everything!
They network. They know lots of people, and they know lots of different kinds of people. They listen to friends, neighbors, co- workers and bartenders. They don’t have to be "the life of the party," in fact many are quiet, even shy, but they value people and they value relationships. Successful people have a Rolodex full of people who value their friendship and return their calls.
They work on themselves and never quit! While the "over-night wonders" become arrogant and quickly disappear, really successful people work on their personality, their leadership skills, management skills, and every other detail of life. When a relationship or business deal goes sour, they assume they can learn from it and they expect to do better next time. Successful people don’t tolerate flaws; they fix them!