Confessions Of A Cartel Hitman

December 5, 2017 | 2 Comments » | Topics: Hall Of Fame, Life Experiences, TRUTH |

confessions of a cartel hitman

To us, it was just “The Office.” But it was a mansion with a huge atrium, a pool, a waterfall, a koi pond, and a staff. We had women who cleaned, cooked, and did our laundry, and old men who maintained the grounds.

The Office was in one of  Tijuana’s best neighborhoods, the equivalent of  Beverly Hills, or Sutton Place in New York. Our neighbors were judges, politicians, businessmen, and old-money families that made their fortunes a hundred years ago in gold, oil, cattle, and crops.

Of course, everyone in the neighborhood knew exactly what was going on behind the walls of the Office. They couldn’t help but see the heavily armed 24-hour security force that patrolled the grounds or the caravans of  SUVs, packed with armed men, coming and going in broad daylight. But the neighbors kept their mouths shut because we didn’t have any dealings with them. Our business was dope and murder, and our enemies were people whose business was dope and murder.

Occasionally the two worlds did collide, and we had to handle these “legitimate” people who decided to play with fire. Some of the kids in these wealthy families were fascinated by the life of a narco-terrorist and did business with us. Some did well. Others ended up melting in a barrel of acid.



Daughter’s Touching Photographs Chronicles Her Parents’ Joint Battle With Cancer

November 30, 2017 | 1 Comment » | Topics: TRUTH |

Howie and Laurel get their weekly chemotherapy treatment, in what Howie calls ‘his and hers chairs’. Laurel and Howie Borowick lived out the final year of their 34-year-long marriage fighting cancer together. Laurel had been diagnosed with breast cancer some 17 years earlier, Howie was told he had terminal pancreatic cancer in December 2012. They chose to spend their last months creating new memories, rather than becoming preoccupied with their troubles. Their family used the time they all had left together to the fullest. Howie died on December 7, 2013, a year and a day after his cancer was discovered. After that, Laurel’s cancer worsened and she passed away on December 6, 2014. The photographer is Laurel and Howie’s daughter. She chose to document her parents’ final chapters in order to hold on to their memory, and to capture their essence and strength in a trying time. She wanted to focus on their love, both individually and for each other. She says that everyone wants to find purpose in their lives, and that Laurel and Howie’s final purpose was found in this moment, in the gift they gave her of allowing her to tell their story. This is their legacy.


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12 Addicts And Former Addicts Reveal The Worst Thing They Ever Did To Get A Fix

November 29, 2017 | 1 Comment » | Topics: TRUTH |

1. I was using pretty heavy at the time and was desperate for some quick cash so I met a guy on craigslist who was really into scat. I shit on him and let him shit on me for $100. He was pretty well off so it was a reoccurring thing that probably happened about 2 times a week for almost 8 months.


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Life Isn’t All Sunshine And Rainbows

November 15, 2017 | 1 Comment » | Topics: TRUTH |

I know poverty, because poverty was there before I was born and it has become a part of life.

Poverty is not going empty for a single day and getting something to eat the next day. Poverty is going empty with no hope for the future. Poverty is getting nobody to feel your pain and poverty is when your dreams go in vain because nobody is there to help you. Poverty is watching your mothers, fathers, brothers and sisters die in pain and sorrow just because they couldn’t get something to eat. Poverty is hearing your grandmothers and grandfathers cry out to death to come and take them because they are tired of this world. Poverty is watching your own children and grandchildren die in your arms but there is nothing you can do. Poverty is watching your children and grandchildren share tears in their deepest sleep. Poverty is suffering from HIV/AIDS and dying a shameful death but nobody seems to care. Poverty is when you hide your face and wish nobody could see you just because you feel less than a human being. Poverty is when you dream of bread and fish you never see in the daylight. Poverty is when people accuse you and prosecute you for no fault of yours, but who is there to speak up for you? Poverty is when the hopes of your fathers and grandfathers just vanish in the blink of an eye. I know poverty and I know poverty just like I know my own name. Poverty never sleeps. Poverty works all day and night. Poverty never takes a holiday


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What Is The Psychology Behind All These Addictive Mobile Games And Their Microtransactions?

November 15, 2017 | 1 Comment » | Topics: TRUTH |

Coming from the mobile video game industry, a lot of effort has gone into the study of what causes addiction without having to affect the addiction with foreign chemicals.

Findings typically go down the path of differences in how much people value short term benefit versus long term consequences. Since individuals are all different, the key is to find mechanisms that help monetize the ones who overvalue the short term. Creating ways to remove pressure/pinch points blocking someone from short-term fun is as effective as providing mechanisms to dose incremental amounts of fun/reward.

The Stanford marshmallow study is a good example of this… kids were offered one marshmallow now or wait and get two marshmallows. Some kids saw the long term benefit of patience and valued long term benefit. Others valued immediate gratification (and perhaps the minimal marginal benefit of the long term) and wanted their marshmallow now.

Addicts tend to be the ones who want one marshmallow now. Addicts are also susceptible to negative reinforcement created when designers place a barrier (known as a pinch) between the player and their reward. Those that are very impatient will spend money to avoid waiting or losing since these people value the positive feelings more than free players.


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5 Signs That You May Belong To A Dangerous Cult

November 14, 2017 | 2 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

As we move into the 21st century, we are seeing many people return from a world of pure secularism to one where they crave spirituality but do not want to return to organised, hierarchical, religion. This is both a blessing and a curse, as it can lead to wonderful personal liberation and insight but also into the arms of manipulative and charismatic leaders or groups that cause harm.

So, below you will find a short list of 5 of the main signs that you need to look for when joining any spiritual group or society. They are not in any particular order, and there are indeed many more signs then this – but this is a good start. If you are involved in a group that shows some of these signs you should become more aware of people’s motivations and movements, take a step back for a bit and use a more objective eye. The more of these signs that the group displays, the more certain you can be that they are not a useful spiritual organisation but rather a dangerous and destructive group that will almost certainly cause you more harm than good.



49 Things They Never Told You About Being A Chef

November 7, 2017 | 3 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

When people are thinking of taking their first steps into kitchens, many around them are quick to give advice. They will warn of the toil involved, the strength of character and the stamina that are needed, the long hours… But however much warning is given, one is always quick to disregard it and shrug one’s shoulders because really, how hard can it be?

In my years working in kitchens I have seen hundreds come and go; eager at the start but quickly disenchanted and just as eager to get out. Only a small percentage of people who walk into the world of gastronomy stay there once faced with this harsh environment.

Below is a list that I compiled of all the realities of day to day life as a chef, based on my own experience as well as on my observations.

What you can expect from making a living in a professional kitchen:



Confessions Of A Nevada Brothel Sex Worker

October 30, 2017 | No Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

Why/how did you choose this career path?

I worked in the beauty/spa industry before this, and it wasn’t paying what I needed to support my lifestyle. I have done sex work on the side for many years (webcamming, pron, panty selling) to suppliment my income. Being innately sexual and being myself/my sexual persona is far more gratifying than feeling like someone’s servant at a day spa.

I decided I would rather do the part time job I enjoy as a full time job instead. I decided to work at the brothels in Nevada as it is something unique, I like the community aspect of the brothel and although I feel it is over regulated, I like the safety as well.


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