19 Survivors Of Suicide Reveal Their First Thoughts After Realizing They Hadn’t Succeeded

January 4, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

1. “Fuck I’m still here”

 I almost don’t want to share this because I don’t know if it’s helpful for people who are going through it right now. But I’ve seen and read so many accounts of people who changed their mind when it seemed to be too late, or realised all their problems were insignificant once they were almost dead. But that didn’t happen to me.

When I started vomiting blood and bile, all I could think was “I really hope I’m not throwing up the pills right now”. I also felt disgusting and ashamed, but I didn’t want to live and I didn’t change my mind. When I woke up I was covered in blood (some from vomit, but a lot from my arms and legs which I’d absolutely shredded with a blade.) there was sick all over the floor and in my hair, and my clothes and face were wet with tears. I was a mess, and I felt like I’d fucked up my life in every possible way, and I have never felt so disappointed or disgusted with myself than when I properly realised it hadn’t worked.


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Advice from a Dying 24 Year-Old

January 2, 2018 | No Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

Soon I will be gone forever, but that’s okay as long as someone reads this. I am only 24 years old, yet I have actually already chosen my last tie. It’s the one that I will wear on my funeral a few months from now. It may not match my suit, but I think it’s perfect for the occasion.

The cancer diagnosis came too late to give me at least a tenuous hope for a long life, but I realized that the most important thing about death is to ensure that you leave this world a little better than it was before you existed with your contributions . The way I’ve lived my life so far, my existence or more precisely the loss of it, will not matter because I have lived without doing anything impactful.

Before, there were so many things that occupied my mind. When I learned how much time I had left, however, it became clear which things are really important. So, I am writing to you for a selfish reason. I want to give meaning to my life by sharing with you what I have realized:


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19 Soldiers Who Fought In Afghanistan Reveal Their Preconceptions That Turned Out To Be Completely Wrong

December 20, 2017 | No Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

1. That Afghanistan was an actual country. It’s only so on a map; the people (in some of the more rural places, at least) have no concept of Afghanistan.

We were in a village in northern Kandahar province, talking to some people who of course had no idea who we were or why we were there. This was in 2004; not only had they not heard about 9/11, they hadn’t heard Americans had come over. Talking to them further, they hadn’t heard about that one time the Russians were in Afghanistan either.

We then asked if they knew where the city of Kandahar was, which is a rather large and important city some 30 miles to the south. They’d heard of it, but no one had ever been there, and they didn’t know when it was.

For them, there was no Afghanistan. The concept just didn’t exist.


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One Of The Best Feelings In The World

December 14, 2017 | 7 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

One of the best feelings in the world is getting your test results back and finding out you don’t have AIDS. No more sleepless nights of questioning whether or not the condom slipped during intercourse with that less than trust-worthy party girl. No more looking up Web-MD for HIV symptoms when you develop a mild cough or show any signs of being under the weather. No more paranoid thoughts of being forever-alone because you contracted a disease that will forever stigmatize you in the dating realm.

If you are sexually active, you should be getting tested at least 2 times per year. And the folks over at Oraquick have developed an FDA approved home testing kit, that gives your results in 20 minutes. No more sweating it out, while you wait 2 weeks for you results. I used this a couple times and its super easy to use and the instructions are super easy to follow. Give yourself some peace of mind and get tested!

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13 People Reveal Their Secret That Could Ruin Their Lives

December 7, 2017 | 1 Comment » | Topics: TRUTH |

1. I’ve been in a strictly sexual relationship with a first cousin for the last five years. We only ever saw each other once or twice a year growing up before she moved to the other side of the country and then never really saw or interacted with each other again until 5 years ago when she moved back. What started as us meeting up one in awhile has become a regular thing in the last few months. It’s escalated to the point where we’re now sexting each other.I’m scared to death of what might happen if anyone in our family finds out but I don’t want to stop what’s happening either.


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12 Addicts And Former Addicts Reveal The Worst Thing They Ever Did To Get A Fix

November 29, 2017 | 1 Comment » | Topics: TRUTH |

1. I was using pretty heavy at the time and was desperate for some quick cash so I met a guy on craigslist who was really into scat. I shit on him and let him shit on me for $100. He was pretty well off so it was a reoccurring thing that probably happened about 2 times a week for almost 8 months.


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What Is The Psychology Behind All These Addictive Mobile Games And Their Microtransactions?

November 15, 2017 | 1 Comment » | Topics: TRUTH |

Coming from the mobile video game industry, a lot of effort has gone into the study of what causes addiction without having to affect the addiction with foreign chemicals.

Findings typically go down the path of differences in how much people value short term benefit versus long term consequences. Since individuals are all different, the key is to find mechanisms that help monetize the ones who overvalue the short term. Creating ways to remove pressure/pinch points blocking someone from short-term fun is as effective as providing mechanisms to dose incremental amounts of fun/reward.

The Stanford marshmallow study is a good example of this… kids were offered one marshmallow now or wait and get two marshmallows. Some kids saw the long term benefit of patience and valued long term benefit. Others valued immediate gratification (and perhaps the minimal marginal benefit of the long term) and wanted their marshmallow now.

Addicts tend to be the ones who want one marshmallow now. Addicts are also susceptible to negative reinforcement created when designers place a barrier (known as a pinch) between the player and their reward. Those that are very impatient will spend money to avoid waiting or losing since these people value the positive feelings more than free players.


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5 Signs That You May Belong To A Dangerous Cult

November 14, 2017 | 2 Comments » | Topics: TRUTH |

As we move into the 21st century, we are seeing many people return from a world of pure secularism to one where they crave spirituality but do not want to return to organised, hierarchical, religion. This is both a blessing and a curse, as it can lead to wonderful personal liberation and insight but also into the arms of manipulative and charismatic leaders or groups that cause harm.

So, below you will find a short list of 5 of the main signs that you need to look for when joining any spiritual group or society. They are not in any particular order, and there are indeed many more signs then this – but this is a good start. If you are involved in a group that shows some of these signs you should become more aware of people’s motivations and movements, take a step back for a bit and use a more objective eye. The more of these signs that the group displays, the more certain you can be that they are not a useful spiritual organisation but rather a dangerous and destructive group that will almost certainly cause you more harm than good.