I have been where you have been, I’m 27 years old and in the past year I’ve had the following “symptoms” :
- twitching all over my body
- numb arms in the morning
- such blurry vision I couldn’t read the computer
- dizziness (I constantly felt drunk)
- Yellow shits with bits in (purely from worry and anxiety, anxiety makes your digestion super fast)
- stomach ache
- Spasming stomach
- bloating which was so uncomfortable
- constant acid reflux
- a white covered tongue
- inability to think, unable to concentrate completely zoned out like a zombie
- heart jumps and scares
- Bloodshot eyes
- chest tightness and pain
- migraines with aura
- ear ache
- ringing in my ear
- crawling sensation in my ear
- ulcers like all the time
- felt weak (e.g. In the gym)
- Back pain
- Joint pain
- jittery jaw/ involuntary jaw moving
- swollen lymph nodes
- numbness and tingling down one side of face
As a result of this I had the following tests:
- 1 MRI
- About 30 blood tests (diabetes, thyroid, full blood count you name it, I’ve had it)
- About 5 stool tests
- 1 ECG
- 2 “emergency” hospital rushes
- 1 x-Ray
- Ears checked multiple times
- Saw an ENT specialist twice
- Saw a neurology specialist
- Had an oral cancer screening (have a single tonsil up)
- Had a mole checked
- got a lump in my tongue checked (Definitely had more than this too)
Paid privately for screenings and all sorts (I’m from the UK so healthcare is free)
I’ve convinced myself I’ve had the following illnesses at times:
- Lymes disease
- Skin cancer
- Oral cancer
- Bowel Cancer
- A Stroke
- Brain tumor
- Heart attack Etc etc….
Guess how many things I had wrong with me?
I was worried about a few things, one was a lump in my tongue which the doctor said was fine, and now I’ve learnt to accept that they are right.
I’m still here, I still have the lump, everything is okay and it’s the same for you.
The best things you can do to help yourself are:
1) DO NOT FUCKING GOOGLE EVER
I stopped googling about 2 months ago, been 100x better ever since.
Has google ever helped you identify a killer disease? Nope didn’t think so.
2) TRY TO BE RATIONAL
The best thing you can do if you think something is wrong is tell yourself:
“okay I have found this, what is the most likely cause” (the most likely thing is that it is something benign)
“okay then I will wait for 2 weeks and then go to the doctor”
9.9 times out of 10 it will be gone
3) REALISE THAT YOU HAVE TO DO THIS YOURSELF – IGNORE YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS MIND AND TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR THOUGHTS
Are you going to honestly let your own brain control how you feel for the rest of your life? Take the time to take control now. It’s honestly completely in your control.
Take a moment and consider what you are doing, there are two people in your head, your conscious self (if you choose to think something) and your unconscious self, which is there doing its own thing.
The unconscious self will make you think things are wrong with you, but you need to take control and not let it control you. As soon as you let yourself think you have something your body will feel as if you have it.
It sounds dumb as fuck, but you need to choose to be healthy, choose that you are okay. Because by choosing that you’re not okay…. shock you’re not okay!
Every single one was manifested by myself cos I allowed myself to get so worked up and stressed.
4) LOOK AFTER YOURSELF
Sleep, exercise etc will help. I had a vitamin D deficiency which was definitely contributing to my anxiety, get a test for that if you don’t get much sun, almost everyone is deficient in it.
Heck take a low dose regardless the placebo effect might help!
5) THINK ABOUT THE PAST
How many times have we been though this? How many times have you had a deadly infections disease?
Are you dead?
No. Why? Because the average life expectancy is like 80 years old….
6) BELIEVE YOUR DOCTOR
How many times have you seen a doctor? How many times were they right?
“But they only looked for one second they must be doing a bad job” – no they’ve just seen whatever you’re showing them 39728364 times before they know what good looks like. If they were worried they would look for longer.
These people are medical professionals because they love people, including you.
7) THINK ABOUT THE FUTURE
Would you rather spend the rest of your life, no matter how long or short it may be like this?
You’ve got shit to go and be successful at, and you sure as hell will struggle if you let something consume you like anxiety will.
It’s no good being alive but not living, go and live!
8) DON’T FUCKING GOOGLE
Just incase you didn’t read the first time.
9) TALK TO PEOPLE
More people have anxiety than you think, almost everyone above like 25 has been anxious or depressed.
Therapy is good, get it if you can, but ultimately it’s up to you to take control and ‘make yourself healthy’
10) STOP CHECKING STUFF
Poking, prodding, opening, touching all makes things dirty, swollen, irritated. Whatever is “wrong with you” will not go away if you keep fucking touching it.
Apply a rule to yourself like “I will leave it alone for 2 weeks and then go to the doctors” that will help you to filter things that do and don’t matter more easily.
Oh and I am not a medical professional and nothing I’ve written is medical advice. You should listen to what your doctor tells you…. which I am guessing is that you have anxiety, which is why you’re on here searching for answers. You won’t find them here, nor will you find anything wrong with you!
Go and enjoy your life, go socialise, make a stand, like I said I don’t have anxiety anymore, I stopped one day and said fuck this, I’m choosing to not have this anymore and it’s gone, it’s a state of mind and you can control your own brain IF TOU CHOOSE TOO!
If you want anything or someone to talk too message me. I’ve not been anxious for at least 2 months now.