Long story short. I’m a (26 F) and My fiancé (25M). Let’s call him Jax for the story. Jax has had a rough upbringing and past. He went to jail for a few months in 2019 for stealing something. He’s also had a few other petty crimes under his belt. As far as I knew that’s all it was. We’ve known each other for about 3 years, friends on and off. We got together 6 months ago and been engaged for about 3 months. It was one of those when you know you know moments between us. It was a fairy tale story. I have never felt so loved, cared for and supported mentally, emotionally, and physically in my life.
Over the past few weeks Jax kept asking me will you stay with me and be there for me if I do go back to jail. I would tell him “of course I would, but that part of his life is over.” He’s got a killer job making great money, motorcycle, nice car, handsome face, fit body. His life was on the up and up and I was so proud of the man he was becoming.
Tonight jax was acting really strange, almost crying, like something was really bothering him. I pressed the issue. He came out to tell me he is going back to jail. He’s been out on bond for 3 years from an incident that happened right around the time he got caught stealing. Jax told me he is going back in two weeks for 1.5 years on a plea deal. I was floored. I had no idea what to think or say, I just cried. At first I was mad at the universe for putting me through some bullshit again, then I was mad at him for not telling me right off the bat, now I’m just confused.
I love this man with all my heart. He basically worships the ground I walk on. Obv we had a very long conversation of him crying and saying he was so sorry for not being man enough to tell me upfront. But he told me he is leaving me all his vehicles and 10k for the bills. He just hopes I’m there waiting for him when he gets out.
What’s crazy is…. I have two degrees. I’ve never been convicted of anything. I have worked for the government. I just do not know what the fuck to do because of how much I truly love him. We are literally the same person just in the opposite sex.