Category: Confessions

My daughter died 5 years ago today and a part of me is glad about that. Makes me sound horrible. I know. I would never say this out loud to anyone ever.

I have three brothers and they all have schizophrenia. They are also mentally disabled so they function with the intelligence of a five year old. One has severe autism and ocd. They all believe the the government/people are watching them and one believes he’s god’s chosen warrior.

I am 31M and before I began BJJ (Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu) – I was a corporate climber, starting my career at 21 with the hustle mentality (6am to 8pm M-F and never switching off during COVID lockdowns).

I had my sights on partnership status before I turned 30 and was happy to ruthlessly knife lesser colleagues in the back if they meant I got the promotion.

I can’t really say this out loud to anyone in my personal life because it would hurt my family members and my friends would try to console me because they love me but honestly, my life has been ruined due to my ugliness.

I’m 30 and my little brother is 24. He’s honestly the best brother I could have asked for. I still remember the day he was born and holding my newborn baby brother when I was a kid. As we grew up I always knew he was different but he’s my brother and I love him and I wouldn’t change him. He’s honestly one of my best friends and having a brother with downs syndrome, especially one like him has made me a better person.