Life Experiences

If you’d told me five years ago I’d one day be the owner of a life-sized, high-end silicone sex doll, I probably would’ve rolled my eyes. I had all the stereotypes in my head: guys with sex dolls were weird, lonely, or desperate, right? But then real life crept in—nights that felt endless, an apartment that echoed with nothing but the TV, and a slow, gnawing realization that I was tired of chasing hookups or feeling like every swipe on a dating app was a referendum on my worth. I didn’t plan on becoming a “sex doll owner.” It just sort of happened, step by step.

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Back when I was in my twenties, I thought I had hit the romantic jackpot.

Her name isn’t important—let’s call her Julie. Julie was one of those women who didn’t just turn heads; she made traffic stop. A walking, talking fantasy. Long legs, exaggerated curves, hair like a shampoo commercial, and a smile that made you forget whatever sentence you were trying to finish. The kind of beauty that makes your brain glitch for a moment.

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If you ask me how many homes I lived in, I honestly couldn’t tell you. Was it twelve? Fifteen? More? After a while, they all blur together. Each one was supposed to be a “fresh start,” but when you’re a kid in foster care, that phrase loses meaning real quick. Fresh starts just mean more garbage bags to cram your life into. And that’s how it is, by the way—your whole childhood, your entire sense of safety and stability, reduced to a few battered trash bags and whatever you can grab when it’s time to go.

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People always want to know, “So… what’s it like?” As if there’s some secret club or mysterious world that opens up when you’re packing a lot more than the average guy. And I get it. It’s not a topic people discuss over lunch. But honestly, after living with it for years, it’s just part of my everyday reality—one that’s both hilarious and a little complicated.

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I was seventeen when my father told me I was getting married. He said it plainly, like it was a business transaction. And in a way, it was. The groom was a wealthy businessman from Dubai. Older. Already married. Foreign. I didn’t even know his full name until a few days later.

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When I was eleven years old, I told my mom I was gay. I didn’t really understand the weight of what I was saying—I just knew that I had feelings for boys and thought I should be honest about it. I expected questions. Maybe even some awkward silence. What I got was a phone call—to our church.

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It’s hard to put into words how much of my self-confidence has been shaped—sometimes warped—by my height. I’m 6’4” and I don’t think there’s ever been a moment when I didn’t feel huge. Not just tall, but huge: always visible, never able to fade into the background, always standing out whether I want to or not.

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You want to know what it’s like?

Try walking into a room, alone, with a man who butchered his family with an axe—and reminding yourself that your job is to understand him, not to judge. That the entire point of your presence is not justice. It’s treatment. Therapy. That’s the line we walk. It’s razor thin.

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