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I am 31M and before I began BJJ (Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu) – I was a corporate climber, starting my career at 21 with the hustle mentality (6am to 8pm M-F and never switching off during COVID lockdowns).
I had my sights on partnership status before I turned 30 and was happy to ruthlessly knife lesser colleagues in the back if they meant I got the promotion.
I can’t really say this out loud to anyone in my personal life because it would hurt my family members and my friends would try to console me because they love me but honestly, my life has been ruined due to my ugliness.
I’m 30 and my little brother is 24. He’s honestly the best brother I could have asked for. I still remember the day he was born and holding my newborn baby brother when I was a kid. As we grew up I always knew he was different but he’s my brother and I love him and I wouldn’t change him. He’s honestly one of my best friends and having a brother with downs syndrome, especially one like him has made me a better person.
I wouldn’t exactly consider myself a hikikomori since I do go outside sometimes and I go to school, but most of my time is largely spent locked away in my bedroom; and I’m okay with that.
I’ve always been somewhat timid and quiet. As a young child, I would try to avoid being around people as much as possible, I enjoyed being alone in my room and doing things like drawing and reading. At school I had little to no friends, but I was okay with that, I enjoyed my own company.
My dad kept his “no questions asked, just call me for help” promise
My (13F) dad is a good dude. He’s not perfect. He’ll get pissed over smaller things sometimes that I think aren’t worth the trouble. He gets a bit too drunk with his co-workers occasionally and gets banished from my parent’s bedroom (LOL). All in all though, good dad.
When I was 18, I was desperate to leave a living situation I was in, and although I don’t wanna get into that too much, I ended up taking a total of 120k, which is now about 20k more i think, to go to a private school.
My penis is 3.5″ erect.
It feels totally emasculating.
I have been dealing with these dysmorphic feelings since my teenage years. It gets exacerbated when I see a young couple with lovely relationship. Knowing the fact that I have already missed that period of life. Due to reasons that are not under the control of mine.
My wife came out. She saw it fitting with it being June and all. Her dad recently passed. He was infamously homophobic, so much so he disowned my wife’s brother for being gay.
We have been together for 24 years. We started dating at 20 and married at 25. We’re now 44 an 43. We had a family. 3 children from 16 to 10. They’re lives are about to be torn apart thanks to a divorce.
Porn has ruined my life.
I’m a very real person and the reality is that I grew up a very unattractive kid. I was fat, I had very present and embarrassing man breasts (gynecomastia), I wore glasses and had a wide gap in my front teeth. I was a shy kid overall and I wasn’t good with girls due to to my many insecurities.